I tried to write about nature

I tried to write about nature

But my heart bubbled up and I couldn't bring it back down.

My heart thuds in my chest like an angry parent on the door when I see him.

Thump.

Thump.

Thump.

He grabs the wild heart and squeezes it to dust when I see him with her.

Or her.

Or her.

Or her.

He walks away, clueless, and I am completely crushed from the pain.

No more.

No more.

No more.

STOP.

Of course I had to be the one who falls for the biggest player in the school.

The one who everyone says is no good and I shouldn't waste my time on.

But I don't want the player.

I don't like him at all.

I want the boy underneath the mask.

The one that I saw. That one day.

You probably didn't even think about it,

but maybe that's why you avoid my gaze.

Because as soon as we starred into each others eyes I saw the boy behind the player.

The boy who is just like everyone else.

Maybe a bit different though.

Different enough to find the need to cover him up.

A boy who's afraid.

I'm afraid too, boy.

But even I can't hide forever.

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe you are just a straight up jerk and I should forget all about you,

but your eyes speak louder then your words.

I'm just not sure which one to trust right now.