Reasons

A few reasons I am really frustrated with myself right now:

-I can never say anything right, and people get offended when I never mean for them to.

-I feel like no one really wants to be around me, so I never call people to hang out. Resulting in me just being frustrated with myself for having no friends.

-I feel like everyone secretly hates me, and only pretends to like me cause I've been leads.

-I can't trust boys. Even if he's a great guy, I still always feel like he'll find a better option.

-Along with the non-trusting thing, I feel like I can never just relax about a boy and trust they'll be loyal or kind. I'm always on edge and heartbroken.

-I feel like everything I say is stupid and drives people away, so I have a feeling of constant regret.

-I feel like I will never be someone's better option and I'll never get married.

-I get jealous super easily when I know there is no reason for me to.

-I talk to myself on a daily basis now. Please tell me this is normal.

-My heart hurts.

I know these are all really flawed thoughts, it's just what I'm feeling right now. And I needed to get it out.