There is no way to escape.
He's everywhere.
My heart.
My head.
My happiness.
The only way out is my sleep, and even then my dreams betray me.
My mind at least tries to be kind.
"Remember all the good times you've had"
"He really isn't that bad"
"Remember what he said to you, he could care"
"It could still happen"
My dreams show me illusions that convince me so much that I wake up everyday thinking that everything is finally going to be OK.
Only to let reality bring me crashing back down.
He is everywhere I go.
I can't even open my eyes without being bombarded by the truth of my situation.
Even the place that used to give me the most joy,
is now corrupted by him.
"Just get over him"
"It's just a phase, I went through it too"
"He's a jerk anyway, he doesn't deserve you"
"It's just high school, high school is supposed to suck"
"He's bad in relationships anyway, you don't need to go through that"
I'm done having people tell me I'm stupid for liking him.
You don't think I already tell myself that with everyday that goes by?
You don't think I don't hate myself for not being able to get over just another "high school crush"?
I guess my only escape will be when the tears finally come,
but I will be found all to soon, the next time he bombards my peace of mind with his poisonous smile.
